Thinking...

So I've been thinking. What happens if I really do fail at life? What happens when I just fail? I contemplate this very idea every day in Government. I mean, the class isn't that bad. I have a 93. If you ask people, that's pretty good. Especially since I have other things to do, like Track, Work, and Good looking guys. But seriously, I'm not truly a hard working person. I've just been fortunate, by this I mean that I've been blessed with this ability to excel in stuff. But not too far ahead, just towards the top (for Loudonville anyways) When I get to college, and medical school (if I make it that far) I'm going to be so far behind. Exhibit A on why I know Loudonville isn't a very good place to find out truly how much you are worth:

Today, In track. We had to "sprint" 3 100's, 3 200's, 2 300's, and then 3 more 200's, and 3 more 100's with 100/200 meter jogs after each "sprint" there was to be no walking (hah). It was an EASY workout. All of the sprinters just kinda went at once (boys and girls at the same time). I finished 3rd just after Corey Lemke and Stevie Allerding who were what, 10 meters ahead of me? But when I'll get to my first track meet on March 28th, I'm not going to do well. The other schools are gonna kick my butt, because Loudonville just sucks at everything.

Anyways, Thinking on these ideas just make me wonder how I'm going to end up. I'm not truly that smart, I don't know much. I haven't read many books, I'd rather spend my time on the computer talking to people via "AIM". Or read my many blogs that I'm addicted to. Oh, the love of blogs. I could have a 95 or above in Gov't right now. I just don't study as much as I should. We have a test on Thursday, and instead of writing this blog.. I should be studying hardcore. Do you think I could identify the 11 modern presidents and the 8 Ohioan (or whatever) presidents? If you thought "No" then you are correct. I don't think I even have their names memorized yet. I will, maybe tomorrow. But not tonight. That isn't even 1/4th of the test, kids. I don't try hard at anything. I coulda ran harder today, but do you think I did? My abs hurt, but do you think I tried my hardest during the 6-minute abs? Uh, NO!

I'm destined to fail. I've decided. Unless I clean up my act and instead of read blogs, do my current event (That I stopped in the middle of because I have absolutely no focus). Clearly I suck at life. Tell me, how am I supposed to make it in life when I can't even stay focused on an easy 50 point current event? I know that gov't is an important class at Loudonville, pretty much the hardest one, and yet I still fall asleep when we watch videos in class?

On another note, although School and Track really have my spirits low... I still have so much to look forward to this school year. Spring Break=Disney, then Prom on May6th, and a Fall Out Boy concert May7th. I'm so pumped, and it's a few months away... Not to mention all of the weekends I'll try to spend hanging out with friends (when I don't work). So much to look forward to, but it is so far away. How am I going to make it?

So now, what I really just need is a hug. Maybe a person that will listen to me say that I suck at everything, and tell me that I don't. Is that too much to ask for? Maybe, but I don't know. I suppose I'll sleep it off and forget about it until tomorrow during Gov't again when I'm doing my "EVAC" and sweet stuff like that.

Will I ever do something right?