Cantankerous?

I am:

com·pla·cent:
adj.
1. Contented to a fault; self-satisfied and unconcerned: He had become complacent after years of success.
2. Eager to please; complaisant.

can·tan·ker·ous:
adj.
1. Ill-tempered and quarrelsome; disagreeable: disliked her cantankerous landlord.
2. Difficult to handle: “had to use liquid helium, which is supercold, costly and cantankerous” (Boston Globe).



I'm both of those, but not really at the same time, that'd be hard to do right? So I see it as... I'm cantankerous for the most part, then I'll give up being such a BITCH (for a while) and become complacent. Then again, I don't really believe I'm ever complacent per se. Just, I stop being so quarrelsome (as the definition put it) and I just appear to be complacent. Maybe that's it. Whichever way you look at it, they're both extremes and only siths deal with extremes. So that makes me Uhm.. like Darth Vader? Or something? I dunna, he's pretty sweet so I can deal with that.

Anyways, I don't really have much else to write about. I was just thinking and I wanted to put some more definitions in my blog, educate some people (myself being one of them-of course this isn't to say that I didn't know what the above words meant, I knew those ones, but I looked up some other words while I was at dictionary.com, a good site) Rather than spending my time working on school work such as reading any of the stuff I should... =\, I'm trying, really I am. I want to read and be smart and stuff... but.. It's just sooooooooo hard!!! Being smart is HARD and that's just too much for me to deal with right now! lol, I'm just so busy working at a fast food place to get smart.. (ahahahahahaha) I hope I'm not the only one that reads the above and laughs a little. I mean, I truly hope people get what I'm trying to say with the whole... Fast food joint thing, but I wanna be smart... Yeah.. Okay.... I'm done, time to go paint my walls red...