WTF?

What the heck is wrong with people? Why is there child porn? If there were a god.. I think there wouldn't be child porn. Doesn't it all come down to prayers and god answering them? I'm assuming these children are praying to not be abused and molested anymore and yet sick fucks out there are still doing it to them. 66 people arrested in Spain for a child porn ring? I'm almost certain these people would go to hell if there were a hell.

Which leads me to another question digging into my brain... If women were created from the rib of Adam and man was created first.. then why do men have nonfunctional nipples? Shouldn't females thus have something that men do that doesn't work if we were formed from Adam? Like an empty ball sack or something (heh heh). You'd think god wouldn't waste his time giving Adam the nipples that don't work first so that he could then take the useless ones and make them useful in Eve. This again leads me to another question on why people would believe women to originate from man when all human fetuses begin as females in utero. Of course with evolution both of these questions are simply answered by, "perhaps humans evolved from an ancient species that didn't require males to reproduce". Oh, how nice life would be without men. Probably a lot less child porn I may be bold enough to add.

God, if you are up there. Why do high priests molest little boys? Why is George W. still in office? When are the conservatives going to legalize government funded stem cell research? Oh it's immoral, yeah? Then what say you about government funded weapon research? I have a feeling a lot more people if not dead yet will die from this research. Who needs Alzheimer cures when we can have bigger guns that can shoot through 20 steel 10 foot thick walls? Not America! Who needs centralized health care when our government can tax us on funding more fighter jets that will burn more fossil fuels and essentially... kill more people? Not America!

If any who read this have any answers or comments go ahead and fill me in! I'd love to know why stem cell research is wrong. Or maybe I'm mistaken and it could actually lead to another Hiroshima..

How college is killing me, and I'm not even there yet.

How do you explain this? I am not even at college yet, and I'm already thoroughly stressed out. I've had the most trouble trying to do anything college related. I filled out my own fafsa, having no help whatsoever from the ones who produced me. I don't know how something so ridiculously easy could be so complicated. So it asks for an amount, it gives exactly where you can find the answer.. and yet.. Something goes wrong. Everything is so secure, you have to sign electronically with these passwords they give you, because so many worthless hell-bent souls just have to steal identities. No matter how right you think you are about an amount, it always turns out your forgot something..

I know I'm probably just complaining over nothing, but I am so stressed out! Every small thing sets me off, and I'm ready to bite out some jugulars. Too bad I'm not just wealthy, and could afford to pay for college without worrying about all of this fafsa stuff. I'm not, however, so I have to. My parents also work pretty much all day, so I have to do all of this stuff. Yay, the real world! Oh, this is the experience of my life and I'm such a better person now, so why am I complaining? Because it still sucks, it sucks a lot. It is almost as if the colleges I would like to go to all put on their steel-tipped boots for this, and said simultaneously "How 'bout we take this boot and shove it up Laura's unfortunate ass", and they did. Oh, they did. 40,000 a year???? What?!?!? Oh, my bad.. 42,000 a year. Yeah, freaking right.

Of course the fun doesn't end with financial aid forms. It goes on with the scholarship fun. Oh, they aren't that bad, the essay topics are all fairly simple. It's just the idea of who I'm competing with here. I'm 9th in my class, but what good is this going to do me when I'm competing with kids who have 4.0's and 30 somethings on their act's? I'm going to try to be civil as possible and not put down any people because I swear to all gods that I have nothing against these kids. They all worked hard, they've all earned their grades, and they are all very intelligent. I know this. I am in no way putting them down. I just have a feeling I'm going to get screwed out of scholarships to people who probably don't need them as much as I do. I'd rather not put my financial situation on such a public site, so I won't. I'll just put it as the situation is not good, at all. I'll end up paying for all of my post-high school education and probably be in debt well into my 40's because of it.

There is always the light at the end of the tunnel... I'm almost finished with all of my financial aid forms. I have basically decided on the cheapest college because I am a realist. I realize that Marietta may not be the best college, and that I'd probably be better off at Denison or Miami even Case.. But 40,000 a year? I don't have that kind of money and Marietta is offering to pay for a lot of my tuition, so that is where I will go.

I can't wait until this period of my life is over, this period of endless pessimism and depression. I know my parents didn't want to put me in this situation, so I'll get on. I just can't wait until its over and I'm at that period in my life everybody tells me about when I say I want something. You know.. when people say, "Oh well when your a surgeon you'll be able to get it.." Of course I realize by the time I'm a surgeon I probably won't want that Full-bred AKC Yorkeshire Terrier puppty anymore.. But at least my kids will be able to have whatever puppy they want, no matter how expensive it is. All because I went through this, and worked my hardest to beat out people who took easy classes all through highschool to earn their high GPA, or quit sports, or had helpful parents that knew calculus and could help out, or didn't need to hold a job to pay for their car, gas, insurance, clothing, and virtually everything else. Somehow, I think I'll be happy later on when I'll be able to be there for my kids.

My experience on Snowboarding.

So today was our very first snow day, freaking sweet, yeah? YEAH! Of course the first thing you have to do on a snow day is sleep in until you can't sleep any more. Then afterwards you go about the house in your pajamas in disbelief that you're uptight superintendent actually finally gave a snow day. Once done with wathing a little tv you eventually change into clothes (or don't whichever) and find something to do.... Like get on the computer and browse the internet for hours. After most of this is done, it's kind of crazy.. but it's around 3. You wonder why every day can't be like that, and realize you've wasted the majority of your morning sleeping. Of course, well, who cares. It felt good, and that's awesome.

This is my normal snow day experience. Now for my today snow day experience. I did most of the things above but instead of internet browsing for hours, I only browsed for about one hour. This was when I decided I wanted to go snow boarding! I have really been snow boarding before and I figured wouldn't it be so dandy to go out and attempt to snowboard. I've heard snowboarding can be quite the difficult thing to learn, but I figured I could at least give it a try. After struggling with my boyfriend to find all of the proper attire to wear to this cold and generally uncomfortable experience we were finally ready to go out to Snow Trails and hit the slopes. Of course not until after hitting up the local McDonalds for a delicious snack wrap (duh).

I do believe that getting to snow trails was the most difficult part for me. Now normally a person who has actually traveled to snow trails before would have taken the smart, direct route via Opposum Run Rd. (possum run) but I, I did not. I took the long way, the very very very long way. The way in which I take 97 or 95 (I can never remember which is which) to Butler and then to Bellville. Of course from there you take a right get onto 13 and eventually reach Opposum Run Rd (sort of). Of course I didn't do that either because I was under the delusion that I needed to get to the other 71 exit because I knew Snow Trails was close to 71 but I didn't know which exit it was. Well, I was wrong, and pissed off. I had to turn all of the way around to take Rt. 13 to the other 71 exit just to realize wow... I took the very scenic and very not gas efficient route to Snow Trails. I even remember passing the turn to Opposum Run Rd. thinking, "Hm, I know that Snow Trails is on this road... but maybe it isn't..." and by the time I got done thinking that at about 60mph the road sign was already gone.

Of course don't let this detour lead you to believe it ruined my day. It did NOT. I was still ready to learn how to snow board and I was still ready to do some back flips and other sweet tricks. Needless to say this didn't happen, but let me go in order. Kyle and I get there, we aren't frequenters so we do not have a pass, or even any gear such as the snowboard or the snowboots. So we have to buy a lift pass, and rent equipment. This did cost quite the pretty penny (115 to be exact). I don't know about you, but I almost wonder if going outside and running down the hill behind the high school and then falling onto my knees/butt at full speed would have been about the same experience. I would have even been able to possibly by myself something useful with that money, like more IB Profen. Of course that's just me being negative. The snowboarding experience wasn't really that bad.

Kyle and I upon exiting the rental station head towards the hills, I mean SLOPES (gotta sound cool and experienced) We decided that we don't need to practice on the baby hill in which there is a cute little carpet that takes you up the hill and you go down a hill about 15 feet. So we go to the next highest level where I don't really understand, but the hill from the baby hill to the bunny hill well it pretty much is ten times larger. Well, after struggling up the lift.. because man.. Snowboards are a lot heavier than I thought. Like really really really heavy and really really really awkward to walk in. I struggled into the lift, and was of course absolutely freaked out. Upon reaching the top of the hill.. I go to get out of the chair and needless to say fall pretty much right onto my face. and then roll down the hill with a very heavy awkward snowboard attached to my already aching ankle. I get the snowboard attached to my other foot, and with full spirit I have at the slope for about.... 3 feet before I fall again, this time onto my ass. Lets put it this way.. I was on my ass a lot more than I was actually snowboarding the first time down the hill. Every time I'd get going I'd almost hit a kid, try to turn, and then land on my ass. Of course the people that I tried to miss would kind of stare and laugh. But oh, oh if they only knew I could have hit them and it would have hurt.

I didn't really let this get to me, although it thoroughly hurt both my ankles, knees, butt, and wrists to fall so frequently. I kept going, and I'd have to say that I went down that mf'ing hill at least 20 times. I eventually mastered that damn lift thing. I also mastered falling on my ass. I, however, did not master the whole snowboarding thing where you start at the top, and make it to the bottom without falling and getting snow in your face. I did make it to the point where I only fell once or twice, and that was a huge advancement for me. I felt accomplished. Of course Kyle showed me up by going down the hill once without falling at all (show off).

Overall, the experience was a good one. I doubt I'd go again this year, not because I'm afraid to, or because I didn't have fun... Okay maybe sort of because I don't like being hurt, but it's mostly because it was freaking 115 dollars. We weren't even there for more than 4 hours! That's absolutely ridiculous! Otherwise, I'd go up more often. I'd school all of those 10 year olds who put me to shame today, and then throw snow in there faces. I'd do sweet 360's and other sweet stuff that snowboarders do.. But, I just don't have that type of money. I don't think I liked the experience enough to even go out and buy stuff or get a season pass. Maybe once a year, but that'll be all.

Essentially the moral of the post is? George W. looks like a monkey with a balding head of grey hair. =) Okay, maybe not that, but more like.. Snowboarding is fun if you can put up with the pain and the possibility of having to ice a knee from constant high pressure impacts (which I did, my knee is still swollen) then have at it! Unless of course you're already really awesome at it and have a pass and go like every day.. then sweet.. More power to you.

The US is run by morons....

"Though the US is responsible for 25 per cent of the world's carbon emissions, the Bush administration has resolutely refused to enforce limits or else enter legally-binding international agreements to tackle climate change, saying such a move would damage the economy. Last month lawyers from the Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) argued before the Supreme Court that the science on climate change was uncertain. They further argued that the agency was not empowered to act to curb emissions. " -Andrew Buncombe in Washington

http://news.independent.co.uk/environment/article2108212.ece

Okay, and well... NYC, Miami, San Fransisco, and many other coastal cities (major ports for distribution of goods that help keep our already decrepit economy from falling apart completely) dissapearing underneath ocean won't hurt our economy how? Hm, lets think about the future a little. Oh wait, I forgot.. They're all wealthy, old, republicans who don't really care because no matter what happens... They have the money and power to stay on their nice island resorts and forget that the rest of our nation is really far behind in keeping up with the much more competitive nations.

And wasting trillions of dollars on our war effort to save a country that doesn't want to be saved isn't hurting our economy? Maybe if Bush and his administration pulled their heads out of their asses, they'd be able to see that not doing anything about global warming is actually hurting our economy much more than doing something about global warming. If American industries can't even sell their goods to nations such as China because we don't meet their CO2 standards I think you'd be able to see that our economy is already suffering, wouldn't you think so?

Of course writing this won't make a difference because the only people reading this are from Loudonville, the village of old, complacent, republicans, too stuck-up to realize they're fucking the rest of the village over. If you aren't the above, you are the child of the above, and probably don't have an opinion of your own anyways. No offense..

Music

I never really understood what made music so freaking sweet, but it is. What I don't really understand, though, is why there are so many varieties of bad music. Why? Also, why must so many people enjoy these bad varieties of music? Country and Rap are both really really bad and yet people enjoy them. Then there are those people who enjoy both country and rap. This absolutely baffles me. Country and Rap have to be on the complete opposite of the spectrum from each other. Country talking about being a hick and living on a farm with a tractor, and then the whole beer thing. Rap talking about being a gangsta with a gun living in the hood with drugs, and weapons and death.. Yeah, I don't know about you but I don't see any connection between the two. Yet, there are plenty of people who enjoy both country and rap... Bipolar? Maybe just a little. If you know the answer to how people can enjoy those two extremes, let me know.

Rock, well... Somewhere somebody got music right. Of course not all rock is good. I will whole-heartedly say that Hinder and Breaking Benjamin and many many other "rock" bands are not good at all. In fact, they suck just as much as country and rap. Sad, but true. Apart from certain rock bands, many are really really good: The Strokes, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Muse, The White Stripes, and many more.

Point of this post? I was listening to music, and this is what came to me..

School/Loudonville

Reasons why I hate school:

1. Getting up in the morning.
2. Having to dress in something other than sweat pants and a t-shirt..
3. Brushing my hair?
4. Makeup..
5. Getting in my car, and it being absolutely freezing in the morning.
6. De-fogging my car/de-frosting my car in the morning.
7. Most of the students and teachers at school suck.
8. The Lunch is not good.
9. Busywork.
10. Homework.
11. Walking from building to building in the rain/snow/wind/heat (any extreme weather)
12. It's 7 hours long.
13. The teachers know everything about your personal life, including many things not any of their business.
14. Then they spread it to other teachers because Loudonville teachers can't keep their faces shut.

Why I hate Loudonville:

1. At Loudonville everybody is republican and narrow-minded.
2. There is no cultural diversity, whatsoever.
3. When I hear "Git-r-done" I want to punch a republican's baby in the face.
4. Everybody is old in Loudonville somehow even if they're not over the age of 50.
5. For such a small town, there are like 15 cops. WHAT THE HECK?
6. There aren't any good food places.. You get tired of pizza. You know?
7. There is nothing to do.
8. The coolest thing to happen to Loudonville is the Free Street Fair, and it isn't even that good..
9. Alumni come back to watch the football team get their asses kicked, and then look back on the days when it didn't suck so bad.
10. Tourists.
11. When you're in a hurry to get somewhere, you always get stuck behind a tractor, it's pretty much guaranteed.
12. The kids will all grow up to be republicans just like their parents.
13. The majority of going-ons in Loudonville are based on status.
14. Everybody is related, and that's just creepy.

I'll write reasons why I like Loudonville and School eventually. Needless to say, I don't want to live in Loudonville, and as soon as I turn 18... I don't think I'm coming back. I'm thinking Australia looks pretty nice. =D

What makes me smile.

There are many things that make me smile. Things like people tripping over holes in the ground, or over their own shoelace. There are also those times when people just say really stupid things, that makes me smile too. Mostly, though, I'm pretty sure it's just my boyfriend. Partly because he does the aforementioned silly things and he does plenty of other really cute things that makes me smile. Like sending me
<-- this picture while I'm at soccer or whatever else I seem to do with my life. He rubs my back when it hurts, and if I'm thirsty he'll go get my a bottle of water to drink even though I'll only end up drinking like 3 sips and then end up forgetting about the bottle. He takes me out to eat every single day for the most part and if we aren't going out to eat it is because we are either taking a nap or watching Fuse/The Science Channel. What makes me feel good down deep is we're so competitive with each other, but in the end... He always lets me win. Of course then he'll make a sad face and then say, "Why can't I ever win?" In which I can reply, "Because I'm the female in this relationship, and that's just how it works". In which he'll reply, "Oh, of course..My bad" Every now and then he'll win and I'll get mad, but it's always cute and it's never a fight. This whole not fighting thing with my boyfriend. Wow, well that is definetely something new. In all of my past "long-term" relationships my boyfriend and I would always fight like crazy. It'd be over something stupid, too. Like I'd think porn is bad and wrong, and it shouldn't exist. Then he'd think, well it doesn't hurt me directly (apparently) and I should just suck it up and get over it. But I WOULD NOT agree. I'd have to say Porn is a serious moral issue and people should fix it. Then we'd sit or stand or walk or whatever it was and fight about it for who knows how long. It was ridiculous, and now I realize (I had not then) that I don't have to put up with crap like that. There are guys out there who agree with many feminine issues, and they aren't gay! I do not have to feel bad about any of the morals I have, because I have found someone who respects that I have those morals, rather than tries to make me follow his own. This makes me so happy, I can't even explain. There are so many other things as well to this relationship that I had not had in my past. My boyfriend and I have so many interests in common. We like the same type of music, and if he doesn't like it.. He doesn't tell me it sucks. He goes ahead and listens to it with me, and sucks it up. I'll do the same for him. I can't recall that ever happening in the past. In fact, all I can recall is how my favorite band was The Killers, and my boyfriend (and I quote) saying as one of their songs was playing "What is this crap, this sucks" Yeah, well it happens, but not anymore. Not only do I not have to deal with a boyfriend who offends me by making fun of my favorite bands, I have a boyfriend who won't sit around for hours while I'm at his house playing video games. Instead, he'll sit around for hours while cuddling with me watching The Science Channel and Fuse. If I've had a bad day, sitting around always cures it for some reason or other. It doesn't help that I have the hottest boyfriend ever, of course. Cuddling with a really cute guy, well.. that just CAN'T be beat. =) Of course liking the same music, and liking the same tv shows isn't just it. We both run, and rather than having to motivate myself to run. He'll motivate me. This is something so new. Never in my life have I had an outside influence motivate me to work hard at running. Next track season will be so hardcore. I'm less than a second off the record, and now I have someone there to help me kick ass. Feels pretty good. All I have left to say is, I'm smiling just thinking about these things, and Oh am I happy. Of course there are many other things that make me smile, music, soccer, etc. None of these things can even come close to my boyfriend. Love you!