I'm such a moron.

Okay, as my title says. "I'm such a moron" Yeah... *sigh* Here's the deal, I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years recently. It was a tough decision, but I ended up deciding it must be done. I just didn't feel into it anymore, and Yes, well.. I was liking someone else. If you haven't heard yet, I totally cheated on my boyfriend. Because I liked this other guy. Of course by cheated I mean, I went to Mansfield with the guy to buy Fall Out Boy tickets and we watched The Pink Panther. OH NO!! I'M SOOOOO BAD! We were originally just going to get the tickets, but going all the way to Mansfield to just buy tickets was pointless, so we decided to go see a movie as well. So call me a horrible person. We also went to eat at Arby's, but we were hungry. Again, call me a horrible person. At least I didn't sleep with the guy, or even kiss or anything. Heck, I didn't even make out with him hours after the breakup *AHEM*

Anyways, on to why I'm a moron.. Well, I just wish I knew what people were thinking. I'm such a horrible person, and apparently a lot of people don't like me because I can be a huge bitch. I really try not to be one, but things just annoy me regularly. Things like stupid people. And man, are there a lot of those. Anyways, on to how I wish I knew what people were thinking. What am I supposed to do? No one ever tells me what they're thinking. So even though I know people think I'm a bitch, I continute to act like one. Moron? YES I AM!

Second point on why I'm a moron, I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years to move into something else in which I don't even know what is going on. The kid goes to Clear Fork, I don't know if he even likes me, and I don't know why he would. I just feel every thing I do is just stupid. Maybe it's because I don't wanna screw it all up and look like a fool? But I already feel like one with every move I make. *sigh*, and now I'm posting this for the whole internet population to read (even though about 2 people actually read this). And I don't even care, because I just wanna know what to do. SO if you are reading this and YOU know... Then tell me.

Other reasons why I feel like a moron.... Hm, well.. I've really been slacking off in everything. Even Government. I barely studied for the last test, and my grades are getting lower. I'm not doing homework until the last minute, and I'm just not caring. I'm not studying, I'm not paying attention, I'm not anything. I just suck. Period. I know this whole blog is just a whine-fest. I'm not really trying to get your sympathy, I'm just. I don't know.. Trying to find out what to do. Maybe searching for some self-esteem, uhm. Some self-confidence? Right now, I have neither.

I suppose what it all comes down to is the fact that I don't wanna screw up. And mess up all aspects of my life within a month. I'm just a loser..